Blaaaaahhhh...Oh tacos

You know, sometimes I think to myself, why can't anyone ever understand me? I'm not speaking verbally or anything like that and I clearly write well enough for anyone who speaks English to understand me. But, what I'm referring to when I say understand me is...my personality. Me. I've gone through life being a loner and being quite comfortable with that. Not many people do understand why I am the way that I am. And a lot more people question it too much for my liking. I'm an individual. Shouldn't be enough of an explanation? Well, apparently, it's not. I get questioned by my own family members constantly. Why do you do this? Why do you do that? Because it's who I am. Would you be happy with yourself if you changed the person that I am? I wouldn't be happy with myself if I forced someone to change who they are and crushed their entire being with my judgments. I'm just saying. Let me be who I am? I'm 21 years old. Obviously I know that I have a lot of growing and molding to do. But, let that happen. Stop trying to impose your ways onto me. I'm sorry that I'm so random and spontaneous and care free. I'm sorry that I don't get hyped up and angry over things that make you angry. Or any other normal person angry. I'm sorry that I act like things don't bother me and rant on and on about things I obviously can't change. I'm sorry that I eat specific things that are to my liking. I'm sorry that I don't eat most of what you eat. I pay for what I eat, so what's the problem? I'm sorry that I'm a big kid inside and I have insomnia and stay up until the morning. I truly am sorry for waking you up countless times. That's rude of me, but it's always accidentally. I get carried away with my late night/early morning cam sessions with my wife. My fault entirely. I do apologize. But more important, I'm just so sorry that we're different. I've never felt so alone when surrounded by so much family. I've never felt like such an outcast. Yes, I'm homesick, but I never once thought that by moving here, I'd be treated this way. I'm a laid back person. I don't react and get heated and do things that I'm going to regret. I'm more of a thinker. And I'm very good at getting revenge. And I've always heard from fellow friends that it's the quiet ones you have to watch out for. They're right. Because we're quietly plotting revenge and taking over the world. It's true. But, I try not to judge others for the way they choose to live their lives. It's ashame that I am being so harshly judged by my own family for the way that I choose to live mine. That is all. My ranting is over. I'm planning on going to get some tacos soon, if I don't change my mind in the next 10 minutes. Times are hard. I'm struggling. But, I will make it through. And even though tacos doesn't seem like the smartest way to go. I'm so hungry. I've practically starved myself for the past week because I was low on funds and only had like 5 corn dogs left in the box I bought last week. And 3 chicken strips left in the pack I bought a couple weeks ago. I knew this day would come. And it has. And I just don't care anymore. I know "she" will bitch at me for not taking care of my responsibilities today, but I don't care. I'd rather wait and deal with the consequences.  I thought I broke my arm last night, but I didn't. Funny thing. It just hurt. It hurt really badly actually. But, while I was playing Tetris with my wife this morning, I complained and whine enough for it to go away. Full proof method there. Oh yeah, speaking of tacos, have you ever had Rubios? They have pretty great food. Not just tacos either. I only ever buy tacos by the bunches, but I have had their other food and it was enjoyable. I was just highly addicted to tacos for awhile. It ran into my funds and I had to go to rehab. Now, I'm back. Oh yeah. Then, when I get back, I will watch the Heat/Dallas game in peace. But only it won't be in peace because she will be home soon to probably lecture me about being loud this morning. It's expected, but always feared, you know? So, have any of you been watching the Nba finals? It's a good one, I tell you. Series is tied 2-2 and it's been a battle. That's exactly what I look for in series like these. I hate to see a team get blown out, except for the Lakers, which was so so sweet. Mmm. Anyway, I'm very much enjoying this back and forth game with these two teams. They both work their asses off to win games and they both want it. But we will just have to see who wants it more. I know I want Dallas to win. Not because I'm a Dallas fan, which I am not. And not because I hate The Heat, which I do not. It's because I'm a huge fan of Lebron James, but he's way too cocky to be allowed to win a title yet. Someone needs to show him how to be humble. Wade is the same way but not as bad and Bosh seems humble so no worries there. But, as much as I wanted Lebron to win a title in Cleveland, I do not think he is ready to win one in Miami. Not yet. Just my opinion. Speaking of that, all the way at the bottom of this blog, there's a poll. Who do you think will win? Answer it. Please? Do it! Now! Before it's too late and the world implodes! Omg. Go. K Bai <3