Home...

So, the time has finally come for me to go home. I am kind of scared of what it's going to take for me to get past security without an ID but whatever. I'm excited to go back home to my mama and grandma and my kitty<3. It's crazy. With the time difference, it seems like I'll be flying for like 12 hours straight, but I won't. In all actuality, my flights combined are only about 6 or 7 hours. First flight is about 4. Then I have a 3 hour layover. Yes, a THREE hour layover. Where I will probably eat. Sit around staring at everyone. Walk around a bit. Sit around staring at everyone some more. Listen to music. Stare. Music. Stare. Music...Stare! And walk around again some more. I mean, I've had hour layovers and 2 hour layovers, but never 3 hour layovers. I can't imagine what I'm going to be doing for 3 hours. If I knew anyone in Chicago, I could probably leave the airport and do something but oh well. I'll manage. I'm pretty sure I'll get to Philadelphia around 1:30 AM. That's what it says on my ticket but it's not always accurate. So, when I finally get home, I won't be doing much. My insomnia will possibly keep me up for hours and hours after arriving home. But I guess it all depends on if and how much sleep I get on the plane. Sometimes I can't fall asleep for the light of me. And sometimes, I pass out, but only for short periods of time. On a 4 hour flight, a nice nap could serve me well. Maybe eat something. Take a couple hour nap. Then I won't have much time left after I wake up and it won't be so bad. My next flight from Chicago to Philly is only an hour and 45 minutes long, which to me, is kind of a breeze. It's the shortest flight I've ever had. It always amazes me how to whole time difference thing affects flying. I'm leaving at 1:30 only to arrive 12 hours later, in a matter of 6-7 hours of flying. It seems like magic. So, anyway. Surprise Surprise. Thursday night I fell asleep around 9 and slept until around 12. Then stayed up until around 7 and slept until around 11. I got up to take the puppy out because for some reason, he was crying. I brought him to my room afterwards and fell asleep again until around 2. Then I finally got up and did laundry and packed a bit more. Cleaned my room and got all of my stuff out of it. Watched some TV and laid around for the rest of the day. Also starved! And then I ate a little and surprisingly felt sleepy at around 9 again so I went to sleep. I woke up at 1 something, I can't remember exactly. But I've been up ever since and am kind of feeling like taking another nap. But I want to be super tired on the plane so I don't know. I've got about 5-6 hours left until I leave the house and I still have to get my luggage in complete order and do my hair to make it look presentable without a hat because they make you take it off at security. So, besides that, I don't really have anything to do. I could take a short nap but then I'd be scared I wouldn't wake up. Blah. I don't know. Maybe I will just rest my eyes and listen to music. Next time you'll see me, I'll be on the east coast. Home. Tata guys. Tralala

California is full of idiots,no offense...

Harrroooo there. So, as you know, I left my drivers license at the DMV. I went up there to retrieve it and the lady I worked with looked at me like I had six eyes and a tail. Like I was inhuman. Not real. She was an idiot. I hate her. But anyway. I decided Id just get a Cali ID to fly with and then replace my Jersey License back at home, which btw, I'll be staying at for longer than expected because my aunt hates my presence here. Whatever. So, I stayed up all night last night AGAIN anticipating my brother coming to take me to the DMV. What? I didn't want to oversleep, which I do quite often. So, I was up all night. Got up around 9. Ate some breakfast. Actually cooked. Surprised? Probably not as surprised as I was. But just so you don't get too impressed. I just boiled some eggs. Ha. Had you fooled. Thought I was an awesome cook deep down under. I am. Anyway. After I ate , I realized I was dead inside. I realized that the combination of me not getting any sleep and it being like 94 degrees outside with NO heat in this house was slowly but surely killing me. Breaking off little pieces of my soul and tossing them around like flowers from a flower girl. Only the devil himself could perform such a task, or my wife. She's just as evil with just barely any soul left. Ahh Ily wife LOL. Wow, sorry. Didn't mean to laugh so abruptly and loud. I'm so..so sorry. But anyway. Back to the story. We get to the DMV. We take a number and we wait. We wait..and we wait..and we wait some more. Finally! We are called. I give in the papers and handle everything for my ID. Little did I know that they'd be shipping off my ID to my address in God knows how many weeks and I swear with the hype that Cali gets, they should speed up their damn processes. I don't know how people get anything done having to wait for everything around here. I got my license at the DMV the day I passed my test. I went right there and took the picture and they gave me a license. It was that easy. But noo not here. California. The place where dreams come true. Yeah right. If it were my dream to have a damn ID right now, then my dream just got stomped on and slaughtered. Thanks a lot California. You've succeeded at being slow and stupid. I appreciate your help. So anyway. Me and my brother were like well see, I have a plane to catch in 3 days and I NEED this ID. I need something. Give me something! So, they give me this print out of my face and my name at the bottom and are like this still probably won't be enough...And I'm just thinking...You don't care so shut your stupid whore mouth. But I mean, that would have been rude to say out loud. So, we take that and we leave and now I am back at home. I'm done with all of the errands. I've decided. If I get past security I get past security. If I don't, I'll cry and be extremely sad and distraught. So, I guess...stay tuned?... You probably want that to happen. Evil. You silly Americans with your love for seeing other people fail. Oh wait, I do too. Well, I'm going to finally pass out after messing around online for a little and texting. Have a good day friends. Tata. Tralala

Ryan Dunn

So, today I woke up to the news of Ryan Dunn's, a star of the show and movies Jackass, death. I was shocked to say the least. Apparently, he was in a double fatal car accident around 3 am this morning. I remember watching him and he was pretty funny. I wasn't always the biggest fan of Jackass, but it was funny to me at times and I would watch every now and again. Out of the entire cast I think Dunn, Knoxville, and Steve-O stood out the most to me. I guess you could say they were my favorites. After years of seeing them pull crazy stunts and do really dumb things, you come to expect certain things from them. But faking a death? Might be a bit far, don't you think? Well, a lot of people on the internet seem to think differently. Maybe a repeat of the Tupac thing or the Elvis thing but, whatever. I think that because he was a part of Jackass and they participate in things as outrageous as faking a death, people think that Ryan Dunn isn't dead and that this is all of hoax. They even go far enough to say that they made the police believe that he is dead. I guess to somehow throw off the facts from the police report. There aren't that many facts to begin with. Speeding may have been a factor in the accident, the car was engulfed in flames when the police arrived, and Dunn was driving, are some of the factors from the police report, to name a few. There was a passenger who was also killed, but has yet to be identified so people have to wait. And just 2 hours before the crash, Dunn tweeted a picture of him "supposedly" drinking an alcoholic drink among a couple friends. And I've heard two sides of the story. On one end, he wasn't too drunk to drive and on another end, he was wasted, and not just with chocolate either. So, you can imagine the rage within people tweeting or whatever about drunk driving. If he was driving drunk and this happened and he killed an innocent passenger, then...by all means, it's his fault. But the mans dead. Not everyone makes the brightest decisions. Lots of people drink and drive and nothing happens. Not to say that it is right because in actuality, it is wrong. But just imagine your mindset if you've driven drunk before and gotten away with it. Imagine your mindset if you've driven drunk a few times, maybe more than that. You probably think you can handle it. So, you don't stress it or look at it as something bad. These mindsets sometimes end with situations like this one. But sometimes, they don't. But back to him faking his death. If he did fake his death then I'd have to be torn on that matter. Because for one, no one has ever been able to pull something crazy like that off and if he has, then wow, good for him. But on another token, that's pretty damn mean and thoughtless to do. And it's not really that funny. It may be funny to some people, and to each their own, but a lot of people will be extremely upset if this is all a joke. I, for one, believe that the reports are true and that he is, in fact, dead. It's a tragedy and it's very sad, but I do believe he is gone. But if you are skeptical about it, all you can do is wait it out. And if it comes out later on that it is or is not fake, then that will be the end of it. Stop writing all of this stuff on yahoo or twitter or where ever about how it's not real, he's not dead. You don't know him personally so who are you to say that? Anyone who writes that about him is stupid and ignorant. That is all. Tata Guys. R.I.P. Ryan Dunn (June 11, 1977 - June 20, 2011) Tralalalala

Is it just me or...

Does Degrassi always have the most epic songs? It can't be just me. I can't be the only one who notices that. I'm really jealous. Sometimes I think about venturing into the film editing major when I see such amazing videos pieced together with music and effects to make magic. Kind of life music. So anyway. I finally got a plane ticket back home. Took a little longer than expected but it's finally time. I go home in a week and trust me, it's well overdue. I misssssss my family so much. And the fat cat of mine. I've been having a lot of issues here but I get past them. I move on. And now it's time for me to let it all go and have some fun with my family at home. Oh, let me tell you about my day. I just realized last night that my drivers license wasn't in my wallet. And then it hit me, the lady at the DMV never gave it back. Son of a....But anyway. I decided then that I would go up there today and see if they still had it. Plus, my mom found a cheap flight for me and was helping me buy it. So, I had to be up early so she could get my bank account information and put the extra money in, and then buy the ticket with my card information. With my insomnia, or bad sleeping pattern, whatever, I knew that I wouldn't be going to bed until at least after 2 am. So, at around 3 or so, I decided I'd stay up because if I had gone to sleep, I wouldn't have woken up for like 12 hours. So, I stayed up. I handled my business with my mother around 6 am Cali time. Then I waited for the DMV to open at 8 am and called to see what to do about my drivers license. The advice the woman gave me was pretty bad. She just told me that they throw away drivers licenses that are left. How stupid is that? You have peoples information in the system. All it takes is 1 phone call. But anyway, since mine was an out of state license (yes, my license was from New Jersey) she advised me to go up there and see if they still had it. Maybe in the lost and found or something. So, I got right up. Brushed my teeth, threw a hat on, and headed out the door. I drove there, got lost like 3 times, then finally found the place. And when I got there, the lady that I had dealt with the other day acted like she didn't even know me. She made me so mad. So, I went to talk to someone else. They all started looking around for it. She looked in the lost and found but nothing. I was like what the hell? You probably threw it away and don't want to admit it. Either that or I'm completely crazy and lost it outside of the DMV. But anyway, I got some form to get a ID because all I was really concerned about was getting on the plane. I can get a new drivers license back home easily. But the woman there told me that I needed my birth certificate in order to get an ID and I was like fuuuuuu----. But then when I got home, I was like hmm, did I bring that with me? So, I started looking for it and I found it and my social security card. I was so happy. I got my ticket home. I'd be able to get an ID in time and everything was good. So I called my mom all happy and told her. She was happy too. Maybe just as excited as me. So, it's now almost 12:30 and I haven't slept yet. 24+ hours, no sleep. And I'm this close to passing out. Kkkkkkksfdjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj....OH...oh...sorry about that...honest mistake, honest mistake. Well, I guess it's time I drift off into a deep deep sleep. Tata guys. Tralalala

Winning!

Curious....Anyone think Ludacris is slept on as a rapper? Or even, not as a rapper but just as a lyricist period? I think that he's underrated and has pretty thought provoking lyrics. Of course, they always have those shows where a bunch of people decide who are the top 10 rappers or hip hop artists in the game. Lil wayne is always at the top somewhere, if not first. Eminem is always on there although I'm not sure if he's ever gotten the number 1 spot. He sure as hell deserves it if he hasn't. Especially now. But I see Ludacris on the lower ends most of the time. Maybe 6th or 5th or something like that. I mean, it's not bad but it's not the best either. I mean, wayne has had some decently worded songs in his time, I do admit. Whether or not he wrote them, I don't care Lol. And Eminem is just a beast on all sides. But Ludacris barely gets noticed with his lyrics and his style of rap. He's actually pretty damn good if you pay close attention to the things he is saying. I'm a big fan of metaphors, so when rappers use them and use them right, it blows my mind and makes me like them even more. Drake uses them a lot. So does Wayne. Eminem even more. The different between Wayne, Drake, and Eminem though is, Em can just explode with insane raps that don't have to necessarily be metaphorically speaking. He could just go off in the booth and come up with something to destroy a song entirely. Wayne can't do that. And if he can, then he hasn't been lately. His raps are similar to nursery rhymes sometimes. They have to rhyme and they don't necessarily always have to make perfect sense. Drake usually makes sense, but he puts way too much emphasis on metaphors. Wayne puts more emphasis on metaphors, that's why it sounds stupid sometimes. But when it comes to Drake, he seems to be basically speaking his mind. Writing out thoughts and making them into thought provoking metaphorical lyrics. And it usually sounds pretty good. Not all the time but usually. Ludacris though, if you go and listen to his lyrics on different remixes or different songs, the things he says are pretty interesting. Sometimes funny. Sometimes thought provoking. Metaphorical too. I just like him more and more every time I hear a new song that he's on. I just thought I'd share that. Also, Eminem is pretty amazing. That is all. "We run from the red & blue lights to get to that green. But whoever got that white is winning like Charlie Sheen." Winning!

Teardrops

If for every teardrop, I had a quarter, I'd pelt them all at you furiously. I really, really hate to be the one to tell you this, but I don't care. I just want to know why people don't know how to be supportive. Why some people look at all of the negatives and ignore the positives. Why? I was happy all day long until I came home. I was so happy. I did what you wanted. I did what you've been telling me to do over and over and complaining about. But, do I get a good job? Do I finally get you to lay off me? No. I guess it's true. When one door closes, another one opens. But I never knew that this could refer to something bad. Leave me alone! I swear, I cannot wait to go home and be with my family who loves me unconditionally. I don't doubt that you love me unconditional. But you should learn how to show it. You should learn how to be supportive and not always look at everything from a negative perspective. I swear, if I won the lottery for 100 million dollars, you'd complain about the taxes. Anything I do that makes me happy, you spit on. I am not entitled to have a parade because obviously the only forecast you can foresee is rain. I mean come on. I am 21 years old. I'm not that smart and I'm not that experienced but let me live my own damn life. Let me decide on my future. Don't ask me questions if you're just going to laugh at my answers. It's my life, not yours. I came out to Cali to do better. To make changes. To be independent and get things that I needed to be production in my life. I did those things. I went to school. I bought my own car. I got insurance. I registered that car. So, all the negativity hasn't phased me. But, it makes me sad to know that I can't even get a good job. You've done alright for yourself. You have your own things. Something you got entirely on your own. Well done? Nothing. I'm sorry bloggers or readers for this rant. I had to unleash those inner feelings before I started throwing things around my house. I was watching I Am Number Four last night or this morning. Depends on how you look at it. But there's a cute moment in there where John (or whatever his name was because they never really disclosed that. Only his fake names which were Daniel at some point and John) tells his love interest Sarah that based on some scrap book looking thing she put together, it seemed like she wanted to run away. She said she'd just be happy when she can get out of there. I can relate. I really can. And he said "I don't know..been to a lot of places"...and she interrupted him to say she had already heard it before. It being "There's no place like home"...I think. Anyway. He says no no, you can go where ever you want. But, "a place is only as good as the people you know in it". That made me think. He's absolutely right. Although it's just writing. It's true. I've been here in Cali with a part of my family that was extremely important growing up. My aunt, my 3 cousins, my brother, and a couple uncles. They were all there with me growing up mean the world to me. But when I came here, no one made me feel welcome except my cousin Brittney. We were like a tag team. We went out together, shopping, bar hopping. Whatever we wanted. We were both in school but we had so much fun together. She recently moved back to Jersey though and I miss her tremendously. My uncle is alright. He never makes me feel not welcomed. And my brother is neither here nor there. But everyone else,  they all just make me feel horrible. Like I don't belong. So I never ever feel like I should be here. I came out here for one reason though. And that was to get a good education, go to university, and get a great job to be successful in back home. I've just started and I don't plan on stopping my path because of their lack of welcoming behavior towards me. And now that I plan on going to Art school, I can go back home for awhile until I do transfer. I don't need to stay here at my aunts for too much longer, so thank god I will be out of this place in a matter of months. My aunt means the world to me. But some people just can't live together and I know just who not to go to if I want to talk to someone about my own ideas. She shuts them down mostly. Or makes me feel stupid for even coming up with such an idiotic idea. I'm sorry I'm not a genius. But anyway. This place is only as good as the people in it. And if you ask me...the people aren't so great for me. The people back home make my living experience amazing. And even though I'll probably be in La for awhile striving towards my music goal, I will always, always know where my home is. TaTa guys.

Yes, I watch Degrassi. And? Wanna come at me, bro?

So....I first heard this song when I was watching Degrassi. Yes, I watch degrassi. I have been since I was like 13. And I'm damn proud of that fact. Even though all of my family bothers me about it and makes fun of the shows and what not. I really don't care. I could let it bother me or I could move on and not sweat it. So I choose to not sweat it although, the amount that my family here bothers me about it gets highly annoying after the first 100 times. It's like okay, I get it. You don't like it. I do. Do we have to go in circles about this? So anyway. I thought that this song was amazing so I had to find out who sings it. And I had to listen to it over and over again until I got sick of it. But, I just though I'd share them with you just in case there are a lot of people out there who didn't hear it on Degrassi or just don't know of the band. I'm here to the rescue. You can repay me by visiting this blog often. A lot. Like, everyday. Anyway. I woke up at like 10 today and I hadn't gone to sleep until around 4. Damn insomnia. It hates me. I once wrote a poem about insomnia. Want to read it? I've actually written a few. But I thought this one was a bit more clever than the others. Hold on, let me find it..............................................................................................Damn. I had to really search for that thing. Anywho. Here it is.

A Thin Line Between Sleep and Insomnia

Dear sleep, I truly must confess 

I've been unfaithful to you & now I am a mess 

It was not my plan to cheat 

There was nothing I could do 

You see my mistress, insomnia, she made me cheat on you 

I try & try to end this thing between insomnia & I 

But, you see, theres just something about me & she just cant say bye 

I close my eyes so tightly, praying she'll disappear 

But I'm just so sorry sleep, my love, insomnia's still here

The end!

I wrote that almost a year ago. About 7 or 8 months I guess. One night I couldn't sleep so I decided to express that. I think it's pretty cute. But anyway. I've been trying to promote this blog like a mad woman. Bringing traffic to blogs is hard at first, I assume. I really want this to take off because I feel like people would like the things I have to say. Even if there are just some people out there just like me who think the same way. It would be nice to reach out to them and have someone who understands me besides my wife. I think I shall go eat. I just got a craving for tacos but my car is in the shop and I am stranded so...corn dogs it is. Or maybe lasagna. Having food in the house comes in handy sometimes. K, see ya soon. TaTa Tralalala

Dallas Wins!

So, I kind of knew this would happen or at least I hoped for it. Dallas wins the 2011 NBA Finals. Okay, I understand the Lebron jokes are kind of funny, but they are getting really old. Lebron chose to go to Miami because he thought he'd have a better shot at a title with more support from two other amazing ball players, Wade and Bosh. I expected him to leave Cleveland. He wasn't getting anywhere with that team and so what he didn't win his FIRST year in Miami. He came pretty damn close. Closer than he ever came to a title then with Cleveland. Now, by no means, am I a Lebron bandwagoner. But, I see potential  in him. He's young and should grow up a little and humble himself instead of being so damn cocky about things. If he thinks he's the best, he should obviously have rings by now. But, he can't be the best if he's cocky. It cripples your ability to have the amount of heart you need to come through for your team and bring your team together when it counts. If you think it's all about you or all about you and only 2 other players on the team, you won't make it. But, even though Lebron needs to grow, I still wouldn't throw low blows at him about Cleveland or about not being able to finish the game. Dallas was a Veteran team. They wanted it and they knew how to get it. I understand disliking Lebrons' cockiness, but at least they made it to the finals and played pretty damn good up until tonight's game, where I don't know what happened. Lebron is a good player. If he were to become a great team player down the line, I see greatness in his future. Moving on. Congratulations to the Dallas Mavericks. You guys deserve this for sure. And another Congratulations to Dirk Nowitzki. Although I did say I didn't see him on the court in the game, he came through in the end. His game wasn't the best, but he still lead his team to victory in all 4 games. He won the MVP of the Finals and I think he deserved this as well. So congrats and great job! That is all for now. TaTa Tralalalaa

Where's Dirk Nowitzki?

I'm sorry. Is it just me or is Dirk not in the game today? I don't see him. I see some guy who looks like him, but he kind of sucks, so that can't be him. This other guy is 1 for 11 so far. That CAN'T be Dirk. I mean Dirk would never miss so many shots in a row and play so poorly in such a huge game. I'm going to start making some calls to try and see why Dirk isn't in the game and who this replacement guy is. TaTa Tralalala

Dallas Vs Lebron and Wade, oh, I mean Miami

Today, I woke up at 12, went to sleep, and woke up again at 3. Went back to sleep and woke up again just before 4. Talk about sleep coma. Although,  I didn't get to bed until around 6 this morning because I was wide awake for awhile. Then there was this raccoon that kept knocking over our trash cans trying to get some food. It came once. I scared it away. It came back, I scared it away again, but it just went around the corner of the house and stared at me, waiting for me to leave. Then, I went back in and it came back again after I got settled in bed. I scared it away again and I think it gave up at that point. I had no idea that raccoon's were so pretty! Like, besides the fact that they will claw you to death almost, they have pretty eyes and faces. Just adorable. And when I turned on the light after it knocked over the trash can, it just stared up at me. So innocently. But deep down evol inside. I just stared at it and it didn't move. Just like those even possums. So anyway, I'm watching Game 6 of The NBA Finals.  Dallas is up 3 games to 2 in a best of 7 series. I want Dallas to win as I've said before and since they are one game away from the title, this game is super crucial. If they don't win this one, it goes to game 7 and although that would be intensely entertaining to watch, I just want Miami to lose right now. So, fingers crossed! So, who saw the video of Lebron and Wade making fun of Dirk? For the people who haven't here! 

Now, if you ask me, I'd say what they are doing there is very immature. But, I won't rant about it because they lost game 5 and they got their Karma and from what I hear, they respect Dirk a lot and were just messing around doing something stupid. Yes, stupid. Immature. But, it is what it is. Noah from the Bulls said it right. "They're Hollywood as hell." Hehe. Sorry, I thought that was funny. Sooo...Dallas is playing good so far. I hope that they keep it up. I'm going to go eat some chips and talk to my wife. Ta Ta. Tralalalalala