Home...

So, the time has finally come for me to go home. I am kind of scared of what it's going to take for me to get past security without an ID but whatever. I'm excited to go back home to my mama and grandma and my kitty<3. It's crazy. With the time difference, it seems like I'll be flying for like 12 hours straight, but I won't. In all actuality, my flights combined are only about 6 or 7 hours. First flight is about 4. Then I have a 3 hour layover. Yes, a THREE hour layover. Where I will probably eat. Sit around staring at everyone. Walk around a bit. Sit around staring at everyone some more. Listen to music. Stare. Music. Stare. Music...Stare! And walk around again some more. I mean, I've had hour layovers and 2 hour layovers, but never 3 hour layovers. I can't imagine what I'm going to be doing for 3 hours. If I knew anyone in Chicago, I could probably leave the airport and do something but oh well. I'll manage. I'm pretty sure I'll get to Philadelphia around 1:30 AM. That's what it says on my ticket but it's not always accurate. So, when I finally get home, I won't be doing much. My insomnia will possibly keep me up for hours and hours after arriving home. But I guess it all depends on if and how much sleep I get on the plane. Sometimes I can't fall asleep for the light of me. And sometimes, I pass out, but only for short periods of time. On a 4 hour flight, a nice nap could serve me well. Maybe eat something. Take a couple hour nap. Then I won't have much time left after I wake up and it won't be so bad. My next flight from Chicago to Philly is only an hour and 45 minutes long, which to me, is kind of a breeze. It's the shortest flight I've ever had. It always amazes me how to whole time difference thing affects flying. I'm leaving at 1:30 only to arrive 12 hours later, in a matter of 6-7 hours of flying. It seems like magic. So, anyway. Surprise Surprise. Thursday night I fell asleep around 9 and slept until around 12. Then stayed up until around 7 and slept until around 11. I got up to take the puppy out because for some reason, he was crying. I brought him to my room afterwards and fell asleep again until around 2. Then I finally got up and did laundry and packed a bit more. Cleaned my room and got all of my stuff out of it. Watched some TV and laid around for the rest of the day. Also starved! And then I ate a little and surprisingly felt sleepy at around 9 again so I went to sleep. I woke up at 1 something, I can't remember exactly. But I've been up ever since and am kind of feeling like taking another nap. But I want to be super tired on the plane so I don't know. I've got about 5-6 hours left until I leave the house and I still have to get my luggage in complete order and do my hair to make it look presentable without a hat because they make you take it off at security. So, besides that, I don't really have anything to do. I could take a short nap but then I'd be scared I wouldn't wake up. Blah. I don't know. Maybe I will just rest my eyes and listen to music. Next time you'll see me, I'll be on the east coast. Home. Tata guys. Tralala

California is full of idiots,no offense...

Harrroooo there. So, as you know, I left my drivers license at the DMV. I went up there to retrieve it and the lady I worked with looked at me like I had six eyes and a tail. Like I was inhuman. Not real. She was an idiot. I hate her. But anyway. I decided Id just get a Cali ID to fly with and then replace my Jersey License back at home, which btw, I'll be staying at for longer than expected because my aunt hates my presence here. Whatever. So, I stayed up all night last night AGAIN anticipating my brother coming to take me to the DMV. What? I didn't want to oversleep, which I do quite often. So, I was up all night. Got up around 9. Ate some breakfast. Actually cooked. Surprised? Probably not as surprised as I was. But just so you don't get too impressed. I just boiled some eggs. Ha. Had you fooled. Thought I was an awesome cook deep down under. I am. Anyway. After I ate , I realized I was dead inside. I realized that the combination of me not getting any sleep and it being like 94 degrees outside with NO heat in this house was slowly but surely killing me. Breaking off little pieces of my soul and tossing them around like flowers from a flower girl. Only the devil himself could perform such a task, or my wife. She's just as evil with just barely any soul left. Ahh Ily wife LOL. Wow, sorry. Didn't mean to laugh so abruptly and loud. I'm so..so sorry. But anyway. Back to the story. We get to the DMV. We take a number and we wait. We wait..and we wait..and we wait some more. Finally! We are called. I give in the papers and handle everything for my ID. Little did I know that they'd be shipping off my ID to my address in God knows how many weeks and I swear with the hype that Cali gets, they should speed up their damn processes. I don't know how people get anything done having to wait for everything around here. I got my license at the DMV the day I passed my test. I went right there and took the picture and they gave me a license. It was that easy. But noo not here. California. The place where dreams come true. Yeah right. If it were my dream to have a damn ID right now, then my dream just got stomped on and slaughtered. Thanks a lot California. You've succeeded at being slow and stupid. I appreciate your help. So anyway. Me and my brother were like well see, I have a plane to catch in 3 days and I NEED this ID. I need something. Give me something! So, they give me this print out of my face and my name at the bottom and are like this still probably won't be enough...And I'm just thinking...You don't care so shut your stupid whore mouth. But I mean, that would have been rude to say out loud. So, we take that and we leave and now I am back at home. I'm done with all of the errands. I've decided. If I get past security I get past security. If I don't, I'll cry and be extremely sad and distraught. So, I guess...stay tuned?... You probably want that to happen. Evil. You silly Americans with your love for seeing other people fail. Oh wait, I do too. Well, I'm going to finally pass out after messing around online for a little and texting. Have a good day friends. Tata. Tralala

Ryan Dunn

So, today I woke up to the news of Ryan Dunn's, a star of the show and movies Jackass, death. I was shocked to say the least. Apparently, he was in a double fatal car accident around 3 am this morning. I remember watching him and he was pretty funny. I wasn't always the biggest fan of Jackass, but it was funny to me at times and I would watch every now and again. Out of the entire cast I think Dunn, Knoxville, and Steve-O stood out the most to me. I guess you could say they were my favorites. After years of seeing them pull crazy stunts and do really dumb things, you come to expect certain things from them. But faking a death? Might be a bit far, don't you think? Well, a lot of people on the internet seem to think differently. Maybe a repeat of the Tupac thing or the Elvis thing but, whatever. I think that because he was a part of Jackass and they participate in things as outrageous as faking a death, people think that Ryan Dunn isn't dead and that this is all of hoax. They even go far enough to say that they made the police believe that he is dead. I guess to somehow throw off the facts from the police report. There aren't that many facts to begin with. Speeding may have been a factor in the accident, the car was engulfed in flames when the police arrived, and Dunn was driving, are some of the factors from the police report, to name a few. There was a passenger who was also killed, but has yet to be identified so people have to wait. And just 2 hours before the crash, Dunn tweeted a picture of him "supposedly" drinking an alcoholic drink among a couple friends. And I've heard two sides of the story. On one end, he wasn't too drunk to drive and on another end, he was wasted, and not just with chocolate either. So, you can imagine the rage within people tweeting or whatever about drunk driving. If he was driving drunk and this happened and he killed an innocent passenger, then...by all means, it's his fault. But the mans dead. Not everyone makes the brightest decisions. Lots of people drink and drive and nothing happens. Not to say that it is right because in actuality, it is wrong. But just imagine your mindset if you've driven drunk before and gotten away with it. Imagine your mindset if you've driven drunk a few times, maybe more than that. You probably think you can handle it. So, you don't stress it or look at it as something bad. These mindsets sometimes end with situations like this one. But sometimes, they don't. But back to him faking his death. If he did fake his death then I'd have to be torn on that matter. Because for one, no one has ever been able to pull something crazy like that off and if he has, then wow, good for him. But on another token, that's pretty damn mean and thoughtless to do. And it's not really that funny. It may be funny to some people, and to each their own, but a lot of people will be extremely upset if this is all a joke. I, for one, believe that the reports are true and that he is, in fact, dead. It's a tragedy and it's very sad, but I do believe he is gone. But if you are skeptical about it, all you can do is wait it out. And if it comes out later on that it is or is not fake, then that will be the end of it. Stop writing all of this stuff on yahoo or twitter or where ever about how it's not real, he's not dead. You don't know him personally so who are you to say that? Anyone who writes that about him is stupid and ignorant. That is all. Tata Guys. R.I.P. Ryan Dunn (June 11, 1977 - June 20, 2011) Tralalalala

Is it just me or...

Does Degrassi always have the most epic songs? It can't be just me. I can't be the only one who notices that. I'm really jealous. Sometimes I think about venturing into the film editing major when I see such amazing videos pieced together with music and effects to make magic. Kind of life music. So anyway. I finally got a plane ticket back home. Took a little longer than expected but it's finally time. I go home in a week and trust me, it's well overdue. I misssssss my family so much. And the fat cat of mine. I've been having a lot of issues here but I get past them. I move on. And now it's time for me to let it all go and have some fun with my family at home. Oh, let me tell you about my day. I just realized last night that my drivers license wasn't in my wallet. And then it hit me, the lady at the DMV never gave it back. Son of a....But anyway. I decided then that I would go up there today and see if they still had it. Plus, my mom found a cheap flight for me and was helping me buy it. So, I had to be up early so she could get my bank account information and put the extra money in, and then buy the ticket with my card information. With my insomnia, or bad sleeping pattern, whatever, I knew that I wouldn't be going to bed until at least after 2 am. So, at around 3 or so, I decided I'd stay up because if I had gone to sleep, I wouldn't have woken up for like 12 hours. So, I stayed up. I handled my business with my mother around 6 am Cali time. Then I waited for the DMV to open at 8 am and called to see what to do about my drivers license. The advice the woman gave me was pretty bad. She just told me that they throw away drivers licenses that are left. How stupid is that? You have peoples information in the system. All it takes is 1 phone call. But anyway, since mine was an out of state license (yes, my license was from New Jersey) she advised me to go up there and see if they still had it. Maybe in the lost and found or something. So, I got right up. Brushed my teeth, threw a hat on, and headed out the door. I drove there, got lost like 3 times, then finally found the place. And when I got there, the lady that I had dealt with the other day acted like she didn't even know me. She made me so mad. So, I went to talk to someone else. They all started looking around for it. She looked in the lost and found but nothing. I was like what the hell? You probably threw it away and don't want to admit it. Either that or I'm completely crazy and lost it outside of the DMV. But anyway, I got some form to get a ID because all I was really concerned about was getting on the plane. I can get a new drivers license back home easily. But the woman there told me that I needed my birth certificate in order to get an ID and I was like fuuuuuu----. But then when I got home, I was like hmm, did I bring that with me? So, I started looking for it and I found it and my social security card. I was so happy. I got my ticket home. I'd be able to get an ID in time and everything was good. So I called my mom all happy and told her. She was happy too. Maybe just as excited as me. So, it's now almost 12:30 and I haven't slept yet. 24+ hours, no sleep. And I'm this close to passing out. Kkkkkkksfdjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj....OH...oh...sorry about that...honest mistake, honest mistake. Well, I guess it's time I drift off into a deep deep sleep. Tata guys. Tralalala

Winning!

Curious....Anyone think Ludacris is slept on as a rapper? Or even, not as a rapper but just as a lyricist period? I think that he's underrated and has pretty thought provoking lyrics. Of course, they always have those shows where a bunch of people decide who are the top 10 rappers or hip hop artists in the game. Lil wayne is always at the top somewhere, if not first. Eminem is always on there although I'm not sure if he's ever gotten the number 1 spot. He sure as hell deserves it if he hasn't. Especially now. But I see Ludacris on the lower ends most of the time. Maybe 6th or 5th or something like that. I mean, it's not bad but it's not the best either. I mean, wayne has had some decently worded songs in his time, I do admit. Whether or not he wrote them, I don't care Lol. And Eminem is just a beast on all sides. But Ludacris barely gets noticed with his lyrics and his style of rap. He's actually pretty damn good if you pay close attention to the things he is saying. I'm a big fan of metaphors, so when rappers use them and use them right, it blows my mind and makes me like them even more. Drake uses them a lot. So does Wayne. Eminem even more. The different between Wayne, Drake, and Eminem though is, Em can just explode with insane raps that don't have to necessarily be metaphorically speaking. He could just go off in the booth and come up with something to destroy a song entirely. Wayne can't do that. And if he can, then he hasn't been lately. His raps are similar to nursery rhymes sometimes. They have to rhyme and they don't necessarily always have to make perfect sense. Drake usually makes sense, but he puts way too much emphasis on metaphors. Wayne puts more emphasis on metaphors, that's why it sounds stupid sometimes. But when it comes to Drake, he seems to be basically speaking his mind. Writing out thoughts and making them into thought provoking metaphorical lyrics. And it usually sounds pretty good. Not all the time but usually. Ludacris though, if you go and listen to his lyrics on different remixes or different songs, the things he says are pretty interesting. Sometimes funny. Sometimes thought provoking. Metaphorical too. I just like him more and more every time I hear a new song that he's on. I just thought I'd share that. Also, Eminem is pretty amazing. That is all. "We run from the red & blue lights to get to that green. But whoever got that white is winning like Charlie Sheen." Winning!

Teardrops

If for every teardrop, I had a quarter, I'd pelt them all at you furiously. I really, really hate to be the one to tell you this, but I don't care. I just want to know why people don't know how to be supportive. Why some people look at all of the negatives and ignore the positives. Why? I was happy all day long until I came home. I was so happy. I did what you wanted. I did what you've been telling me to do over and over and complaining about. But, do I get a good job? Do I finally get you to lay off me? No. I guess it's true. When one door closes, another one opens. But I never knew that this could refer to something bad. Leave me alone! I swear, I cannot wait to go home and be with my family who loves me unconditionally. I don't doubt that you love me unconditional. But you should learn how to show it. You should learn how to be supportive and not always look at everything from a negative perspective. I swear, if I won the lottery for 100 million dollars, you'd complain about the taxes. Anything I do that makes me happy, you spit on. I am not entitled to have a parade because obviously the only forecast you can foresee is rain. I mean come on. I am 21 years old. I'm not that smart and I'm not that experienced but let me live my own damn life. Let me decide on my future. Don't ask me questions if you're just going to laugh at my answers. It's my life, not yours. I came out to Cali to do better. To make changes. To be independent and get things that I needed to be production in my life. I did those things. I went to school. I bought my own car. I got insurance. I registered that car. So, all the negativity hasn't phased me. But, it makes me sad to know that I can't even get a good job. You've done alright for yourself. You have your own things. Something you got entirely on your own. Well done? Nothing. I'm sorry bloggers or readers for this rant. I had to unleash those inner feelings before I started throwing things around my house. I was watching I Am Number Four last night or this morning. Depends on how you look at it. But there's a cute moment in there where John (or whatever his name was because they never really disclosed that. Only his fake names which were Daniel at some point and John) tells his love interest Sarah that based on some scrap book looking thing she put together, it seemed like she wanted to run away. She said she'd just be happy when she can get out of there. I can relate. I really can. And he said "I don't know..been to a lot of places"...and she interrupted him to say she had already heard it before. It being "There's no place like home"...I think. Anyway. He says no no, you can go where ever you want. But, "a place is only as good as the people you know in it". That made me think. He's absolutely right. Although it's just writing. It's true. I've been here in Cali with a part of my family that was extremely important growing up. My aunt, my 3 cousins, my brother, and a couple uncles. They were all there with me growing up mean the world to me. But when I came here, no one made me feel welcome except my cousin Brittney. We were like a tag team. We went out together, shopping, bar hopping. Whatever we wanted. We were both in school but we had so much fun together. She recently moved back to Jersey though and I miss her tremendously. My uncle is alright. He never makes me feel not welcomed. And my brother is neither here nor there. But everyone else,  they all just make me feel horrible. Like I don't belong. So I never ever feel like I should be here. I came out here for one reason though. And that was to get a good education, go to university, and get a great job to be successful in back home. I've just started and I don't plan on stopping my path because of their lack of welcoming behavior towards me. And now that I plan on going to Art school, I can go back home for awhile until I do transfer. I don't need to stay here at my aunts for too much longer, so thank god I will be out of this place in a matter of months. My aunt means the world to me. But some people just can't live together and I know just who not to go to if I want to talk to someone about my own ideas. She shuts them down mostly. Or makes me feel stupid for even coming up with such an idiotic idea. I'm sorry I'm not a genius. But anyway. This place is only as good as the people in it. And if you ask me...the people aren't so great for me. The people back home make my living experience amazing. And even though I'll probably be in La for awhile striving towards my music goal, I will always, always know where my home is. TaTa guys.

Yes, I watch Degrassi. And? Wanna come at me, bro?

So....I first heard this song when I was watching Degrassi. Yes, I watch degrassi. I have been since I was like 13. And I'm damn proud of that fact. Even though all of my family bothers me about it and makes fun of the shows and what not. I really don't care. I could let it bother me or I could move on and not sweat it. So I choose to not sweat it although, the amount that my family here bothers me about it gets highly annoying after the first 100 times. It's like okay, I get it. You don't like it. I do. Do we have to go in circles about this? So anyway. I thought that this song was amazing so I had to find out who sings it. And I had to listen to it over and over again until I got sick of it. But, I just though I'd share them with you just in case there are a lot of people out there who didn't hear it on Degrassi or just don't know of the band. I'm here to the rescue. You can repay me by visiting this blog often. A lot. Like, everyday. Anyway. I woke up at like 10 today and I hadn't gone to sleep until around 4. Damn insomnia. It hates me. I once wrote a poem about insomnia. Want to read it? I've actually written a few. But I thought this one was a bit more clever than the others. Hold on, let me find it..............................................................................................Damn. I had to really search for that thing. Anywho. Here it is.

A Thin Line Between Sleep and Insomnia

Dear sleep, I truly must confess 

I've been unfaithful to you & now I am a mess 

It was not my plan to cheat 

There was nothing I could do 

You see my mistress, insomnia, she made me cheat on you 

I try & try to end this thing between insomnia & I 

But, you see, theres just something about me & she just cant say bye 

I close my eyes so tightly, praying she'll disappear 

But I'm just so sorry sleep, my love, insomnia's still here

The end!

I wrote that almost a year ago. About 7 or 8 months I guess. One night I couldn't sleep so I decided to express that. I think it's pretty cute. But anyway. I've been trying to promote this blog like a mad woman. Bringing traffic to blogs is hard at first, I assume. I really want this to take off because I feel like people would like the things I have to say. Even if there are just some people out there just like me who think the same way. It would be nice to reach out to them and have someone who understands me besides my wife. I think I shall go eat. I just got a craving for tacos but my car is in the shop and I am stranded so...corn dogs it is. Or maybe lasagna. Having food in the house comes in handy sometimes. K, see ya soon. TaTa Tralalala

Dallas Wins!

So, I kind of knew this would happen or at least I hoped for it. Dallas wins the 2011 NBA Finals. Okay, I understand the Lebron jokes are kind of funny, but they are getting really old. Lebron chose to go to Miami because he thought he'd have a better shot at a title with more support from two other amazing ball players, Wade and Bosh. I expected him to leave Cleveland. He wasn't getting anywhere with that team and so what he didn't win his FIRST year in Miami. He came pretty damn close. Closer than he ever came to a title then with Cleveland. Now, by no means, am I a Lebron bandwagoner. But, I see potential  in him. He's young and should grow up a little and humble himself instead of being so damn cocky about things. If he thinks he's the best, he should obviously have rings by now. But, he can't be the best if he's cocky. It cripples your ability to have the amount of heart you need to come through for your team and bring your team together when it counts. If you think it's all about you or all about you and only 2 other players on the team, you won't make it. But, even though Lebron needs to grow, I still wouldn't throw low blows at him about Cleveland or about not being able to finish the game. Dallas was a Veteran team. They wanted it and they knew how to get it. I understand disliking Lebrons' cockiness, but at least they made it to the finals and played pretty damn good up until tonight's game, where I don't know what happened. Lebron is a good player. If he were to become a great team player down the line, I see greatness in his future. Moving on. Congratulations to the Dallas Mavericks. You guys deserve this for sure. And another Congratulations to Dirk Nowitzki. Although I did say I didn't see him on the court in the game, he came through in the end. His game wasn't the best, but he still lead his team to victory in all 4 games. He won the MVP of the Finals and I think he deserved this as well. So congrats and great job! That is all for now. TaTa Tralalalaa

Where's Dirk Nowitzki?

I'm sorry. Is it just me or is Dirk not in the game today? I don't see him. I see some guy who looks like him, but he kind of sucks, so that can't be him. This other guy is 1 for 11 so far. That CAN'T be Dirk. I mean Dirk would never miss so many shots in a row and play so poorly in such a huge game. I'm going to start making some calls to try and see why Dirk isn't in the game and who this replacement guy is. TaTa Tralalala

Dallas Vs Lebron and Wade, oh, I mean Miami

Today, I woke up at 12, went to sleep, and woke up again at 3. Went back to sleep and woke up again just before 4. Talk about sleep coma. Although,  I didn't get to bed until around 6 this morning because I was wide awake for awhile. Then there was this raccoon that kept knocking over our trash cans trying to get some food. It came once. I scared it away. It came back, I scared it away again, but it just went around the corner of the house and stared at me, waiting for me to leave. Then, I went back in and it came back again after I got settled in bed. I scared it away again and I think it gave up at that point. I had no idea that raccoon's were so pretty! Like, besides the fact that they will claw you to death almost, they have pretty eyes and faces. Just adorable. And when I turned on the light after it knocked over the trash can, it just stared up at me. So innocently. But deep down evol inside. I just stared at it and it didn't move. Just like those even possums. So anyway, I'm watching Game 6 of The NBA Finals.  Dallas is up 3 games to 2 in a best of 7 series. I want Dallas to win as I've said before and since they are one game away from the title, this game is super crucial. If they don't win this one, it goes to game 7 and although that would be intensely entertaining to watch, I just want Miami to lose right now. So, fingers crossed! So, who saw the video of Lebron and Wade making fun of Dirk? For the people who haven't here! 

Now, if you ask me, I'd say what they are doing there is very immature. But, I won't rant about it because they lost game 5 and they got their Karma and from what I hear, they respect Dirk a lot and were just messing around doing something stupid. Yes, stupid. Immature. But, it is what it is. Noah from the Bulls said it right. "They're Hollywood as hell." Hehe. Sorry, I thought that was funny. Sooo...Dallas is playing good so far. I hope that they keep it up. I'm going to go eat some chips and talk to my wife. Ta Ta. Tralalalalala

hahahHAHAHahaha

Bored, bored, bored out of my mind. It's Saturday night I'd rather be at home then out at the bar or something. Mostly because of my homesickness. I just want to go home and it's beginning to stress me out, the amount of money it cost to get a ticket and utter lack there of. Hopefully I will get home before next weekend. *Prays* Anyway. I went grocery shopping today and got me some food. All food in a box because that's just how I roll. Some corn dogs. Some Stouffers boxes of food. Gatorade!!!! And pf course some CANDY! Can't go without the candy. Oh, and also some more chips. And now, it's pretty late, haven't heard from the wife. Sadness. And I'm watching The Other Guys. This movie is hilarious. So damn funny. Will Farrel is one of my favorite comedic actors. He's just insane. And you can't go wrong with Mark Wahlberg. I'm just at the part where Gator is describing when he was a pimp. Ahhhhhhhh. Just so funny. Who's baby is that?!? Gators btches better be using jimmies. Sorry, I just had to. That part cracks me up. I always say it to my friends randomly. But, eh that is all for the night I guess. I'm so damn jittery and bored right now, it's ridiculous. It's like I need to get up and go but I don't feel like it and I also let my cousin borrow my car for the night so I'd be screwed even if I wanted to leave. I need to find something or someone to keep me entertained. Ta ta. Tralalalalala

What the hell?

I'm gonna write in red today just cause. So, I woke up today and mind you, I woke up early. You see the time? I'm never up this early. It's crippling me as we speak. I feel a piece of me is still asleep but I'm up now. No turning back at this point. What's done is done. It is what it is. You know what I'm saying? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!...Ahem..-__- So moving on. I look at my computer screen after I come from the bathroom and my Itunes is up and it says something about this phone has been synced before with Itunes somewhere blah blah dee blah. And I'm like what the fuuuuu--. If my phone erased all its contents, I will destroy it and anything around. Complete mutilation. So, I go through my phone and everytings there so I'm like ???. So, I click on restore phone from back up because apparently, Itunes is so retarded that it thinks my phone is brand new with nothing on it. It then proceeds to freeze and die. So, that was that. I closed it. End of story. This is why I hate using Itunes. It's not smart enough for me. So, my wife hasn't hit me up in like a day now. It kind of sucks when you know nothing about what's going on and you don't know whether to worry or to immediately blame it on her lack of focus and squirrel like attention span. I can't be mad at her. She doesn't know any better and she's quite the ass herself so even if I was mad at her, which I have been before, she'll just ignore it either because she's afraid to deal with it or just doesn't care. I for one, think that she just needs better people skills but so do I so I can't fault her on that either. So, my ex called me last night to apologize for calling me the night before...Are you lost too? I mean, I guess I should explain my ex to you before I start diving into things that she does. To be honest, I've had quite a few ex's but as far as annoyance, she takes the cake, I believe. We dated less than 3 months. She was a number of things while we dated. Evol. Harsh. Smug. Bitchy. Mean. Spiteful. Childish. Immature. I could go on for days but I won't. That would be a pretty long ass blog. Anyway. Apparently, I'm an untrustworthy individual. Now do I seem like I can't be trusted? Like you'd know anyway! Shut up! Just kidding. But yeah. When I was back in Jersey, we were together but I can't lie, I never developed strong feelings for her and at 3 months I wasn't sure if we could go on with me kind of disliking most things about her. And when we started dating, I probably wasn't over my ex, but then I realized I was and wanted to be single because the relationship I was in had no future. Am I wrong for ending things? I think I was pretty awesome for ending things. Pretty proud of myself for that. I could've strung her along for months and months, years even. I mean, she was in love with me and probably still is somewhere deep down inside, so I could have just stayed with her and played with her emotions like that. Does that sound like a good thing to do to someone? Knowingly? Anyway, sometime before or after our 3 months, I decided I was moving to Cali. So obviously, this would put a strain on any relationship. Living 3000 miles away from someone is hard especially when you'd rather be out mingling. So, it became a problem for her. She got scared. She's insecure like that with me for some reason. Apparently I'm irresistible in her eyes. Ha. So, she broke up with me and I thought Ha, here's my out. I know, it's really crappy to think that when someone breaks up with you but Hey, what can I say. I did want out. But the thing about that is, she asked me back out the next day. Now, I was in quite the predicament. I said no, obviously because it was not what I wanted but apparently, it devastated her. I didn't get it. How can you break up with someone and then get upset if they don't take you back when you change your mind. You broke up the relationship! It's your fault. But anyway. In a way, I felt bad because had I wanted her, we would have been back together in an instant and I was certain that she thought we would be. So, we were done but still treated each other like spouses. Jealousy still comes even with people you don't really want. Which I find stupid. Such a horrible emotion to feel. But anyway, when it came time for me to move to Cali, I packed up and left. Left it all behind but we kept talking. And at some point, I think that whole 'My ex annoys the crap out of me' phase kicked in. Everything she did was just horrible. She said hi, I was like Who the fuuuuu--- says hi AT 2:30 IN THE AFTERNOON....Bastard. I mean, I can admit, she was annoying me for reasons that shouldn't even be annoying. I felt a slight hatred for her existence at that time. It was sad. And she kept asking me, why do you keep getting annoyed by me? And I was like I don't know. If I tell you, you'll get mad. She's like no, I won't. I promise. And as smart as I am, I fell for it. But I knew deep down that she still would. So, I told her that everything she did annoyed me and I didn't know why. She got mad at me and like signed off of Facebook all fast. I was like Wow. Promise BreakerER! So we stopped talking for like 4 months. I deleted her off of Facebook and moved on with my life. I honestly could have cared less. I still wanted an out. Her attitude is always too much for me. So, she sends me random texts like Oh I heard about a flood in Jersey, just checking on you. Smh. I told her I was fine and left it alone. A couple months later, more recently, she sends me a text on her birthday, which I forgot...Yeah, pretty horrible friend I am. So she says oh my friends told me to text someone I haven't talked to in a while. And I was like what the fuuuu---. Theres a reason for that, don't you remember? It really irritated me. If you want to talk, be straight forward. Don't send stupid texts about nothing to see if I respond how you want. It's like we're back in middle school or something. So, I ask her. We get into this big argument and then make up and become friends again. Since then, we've had 3535354535 fights. And I'm not even exaggerating. Okay, I am. But still, we've fought a lot. All we ever do is fight and I'm not going to point any fingers. But it's HER fault. Just kidding, but seriously...Anyway. I know why we fight. Because she's very sensitive and a bitch at the same time. I don't have the patience for people who want me to cater to their needs but won't even cater to a simple need of mine. But since I don't really have needs that revolve around sensitivity, it becomes a huge battle of, why? Why do I need to walk on egg shells around you when I speak when you can say whatever you want to me and I won't be upset? It's hard. Way too hard for us to be friends but she constantly wants to be and I constantly don't care. Just the other day we fought about the word Jesus and if me saying the word Jesus offends you at all....Wait, what was I going to say? Anyway. I said Jesus in a text and she said don't say that. I said why? She said because it's disrespectful. I said why? She said because it is how I was raised. I said okay but WHY is it disrespectful, period? She wouldn't answer and kept saying it was how she was raised and for me to be tolerant of her beliefs. And of course, I debate things. I wanted her to explain to me the exact reasons because although I'm Christian, we weren't that religious growing up. We went to church every Sunday as children but when we grew up, we had freedom to form our own opinions about religion and I appreciated that. So, I ask her this question for her to tell me the reasoning and she gets mad and starts a fight and gets all heated and mad because she had anger management problems and I honestly think if I was near her when we argue, she'd probably stab me a few times. That's real honesty, not a joke. But it's funny though. And I laugh at her sometimes when she gets so angry because it's over the smallest things. And I know it's evol of me to laugh at her but I laugh when I'm nervous and her anger makes me nervous in a happy sort of way. But anyway, I ask her, we fight, she never answers, I google it and Bam. I get it, just don't neccessarily agree with it 100% if I may say without being struck down. So, I questioned her. Why is it okay for her to stifle my thoughts and opinions but it's not okay for me to speak freely around her? And if she's so religious and believer of the bible then why does she sleep around? Okay, I won't say she sleeps around, but she fears love so...she kind of does. She's never slept with a person she's been in love with. So, that says a lot. Not in a judgmental way though. Humans sleep around. It's what we do. We, not meaning me, because I don't. Ever! But, if she does that, I still accept her, but I doubt she accepts me for me. So anywaaay, enough about our back story. That's her. That's what she's about. Back to what I started with probably hours ago now. She calls me two nights ago drunk. Now, I've always hated the fact that she gets stupidly drunk for no reason. I guess cause it's fun. Whoopty Doo. You can drink. Congratulations. I've drank a little in my life but not nearly as much as she has. And it was like an every day thing for her which I don't get. That's borderline alcoholic, isn't it? Anyway, a long time ago, she called me drunk and cursed me out for no reason. From that moment on, I told her, don't call me drunk. Don't text me drunk. Don't even think about calling me after you've been drinking. Just don't. So she calls me drunk two nights ago. Tells me to talk to her until she falls asleep. Tells me she only ate chips and some candy and then went out drinking. And then tells me to come up with a topic and if not then she's going to hang up. So we almost get into it that night because I say something and she immediately says I don't want to do this with you tonight. I don't want to argue and I'm thinking, who's arguing? I hate it when I say something and I'm totally calm and someone says, calm down or I don't want to do this. If you'd STFU and stop jumping to conclusions, we wouldn't. Deal? Okay so, we hang up. She calls me last night to apologize and talk. And I'm like cool. But then my food came and I told her I had to go. Good day sir! Then I spent the night being bored. That was it. And now I'm awake long before my time to be awake. Nap? Yes, I do believe I would like to take one of those. Good day all. Good day!

I like cheese

Harrrroooooo. So, today I woke up and brushed my teeth and stuff. Went back to my room and checked my phone. I had a message from my wife telling me to get ready to wake up because she was almost done with school. That was like 2 hours before I had woke up. She was supposed to be home but I haven't talked to her all day. Oh well. That was lame. But like I said, oh well. Stop bringing it up, Gosh! Rude..Anyway, after I finally got myself up and out of bed for good, I did some laundry. Then I got ready to eat something because my stomach was starting world war III inside itself. I took the puppy outside and as soon as I set him down outside, he literally just barfed right in front of me. That's the second time this week. I don't know what's going on with him but the process of him barfing is extremely disturbing. After I brought him inside, I went to get my laptop and just a little back history on my laptop. I think I've dropped it like 95 times total. One time I was on it and was really sleepy and dropped it on it's side because I fell asleep. I haven't taken the best care of this laptop but it's still my baby. Okay so...I went to pick it up and I grabbed it by the screen, lifted up, and the screen kind of totally disconnected from the keyboard, only on one side though. I was devastated. Completely shocked. I was like fuuuuuuu--- but then..I was like, okay. Calm down. I took it in the living room and took a close look at it. I noticed that there was a tiny little screw missing. So, I went back to my room and found it on my bed. I tried to put the screen back in. It took me light years, I believe. I still couldn't get it back in. I used scissors. This other thing I found in the kitchen drawer. My fingers. Scissors again. Nothing worked. So, I gave up. Well, sort of. I managed to get the screen back connected partially and then I used taped. It looks great if you ask me. So, now I can use it without the screen falling on it's back. After that was done, I got food. Mmmm leftover tacos. Yummmmmy. I ated that. It was delicious. Then, I watched a little bit of 90210, the older version because I usually watch One tree hill at 2 and 3 and 90210 comes on after and sometimes I'm too lazy to find something else to watch. It's slightly entertaining though. Then, I decided to take puppy for a walk and take some pictures while I was out there. Lately I've been searching for some related scholarships for my music major and I can't really find any that pertain to me. The art institute has it's own scholarship contests and one that stood out to me was their photography contest. I do love taking pictures, but it isn't my passion. But I thought, why not take a shot at it. If you are interested in checking out this competition click here. So, I got the puppy ready to go out. Whenever you even touch his leash, he goes crazy. It seems like can't control himself. Like there's a chi-poo beast inside of him dying to get out. It's really sad. He's uncontrollable. I can barely get him to sit for me to put the leash on him. So, we went for a pleasant walk and here are some of the pictures I took. Enjoy.

ooooooooooooh yeah. I like cheese. My hubby and I were having a conversation about chips. Yeah, I know, don't say it. But yeah. I told him I bought chips. He said what kind? I told him cheddar and sour cream. He said something about some other kind of chips called Southern Heat and how they were pretty good. I said I like cheese. He said He likes cheese, but he doesn't like sour cream, but he does like sour cream and onion chips. This is all random and irrelevant information for anyone. But, isn't puppy cute? Uh huh Uh huh, yeah he is. Don't you dare deny it! Anyway, I'm going to go eat some of those chips I bought. Mmmm. Yum Yum Yum. Buh Bye now.

Go Dallas!

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Dallas won, as you can probably tell. Lebron sucked ass. Wade got hurt. Went into the locker room. Came out to play again. Left. Came back again. And they still lost. So clearly, it's Lebrons fault. Anyway, Go Dallas. Good job guys. Now what? I don't know. I have nothing to do as this point since my wife is doing something or another. I guess I could text people but eh. I'm too lazy for that right now. OMG. Bad boys is on. I shall watch. I don't know about you but that part where Will Smith rescues Martin Lawrence from getting run over by the bad guy in that cab, ooooooh, it drives me crazy. I guess I like action like that. If you're into making music, check out these items : Very nice headphones. I want some for myself for when I move to La. Might work better than my Sony ones. Also there is pro tools 9. It's the newest version of Pro tools and I've had the pleasure of experiencing and learning the ins and outs of this software. Anyone can probably use this. Buy the book if you have to. But it's very fun and very useful.If you are really really into making music and the whole nine yard, A pro tools Mbox might be a great buy for you. If you know anything about Pro tools, you'll know what this is used for. Also, a few guitars because I LOVE guitars. I love playing guitar. I love listening to guitar. I just love it all. I plan on buying a new one eventually when I can afford it.

Question Everything

Random videos! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...  .blinks. -___- hmm..Okay, anyway. I'm posting this video not because I love Kanye West, which I don't. Not because I think the song is just spectacular, which I don't, although it's catchy and enjoyable. I'm playing is because this is what I love. The effects, although I read somewhere that it was done before, but whatever. This version, to me, was just amazingly done. When I first saw it, I was amazed. The art within this piece is just astonishing in my eyes. So many colors. So many lights. So many effects. I like it. So, I'm kind of watching game 5 of the NBA Finals right now and the Heat are losing. Wade got hurt. Do you see...a connection? That sucks for them because Wade has been kicking ass this series and without him, I'm not sure if Lebron can handle it. Well anyway, MORE VIDEOS! Yes!

"God that was strange to see you again Introduced by a friend of a friend You smiled and said yes I think we've met before In that instant, it started to pour" 

Man, I played this song so much after me and my ex broke up. Even dedicated it to her. I love the instrumentation in this song. I could spend hours listening to the beginning of this song. I don't even need to the lyrics, although I love them. I could just listen to the beat over and over. It soothes me. MOAR!

 Ahhhhh Pro tools!!!!! My love <3

Random dancing from So you think you can dance. I used to watch this show during the first and second season and now it's been on for a long time. I love dance so obviously when I saw this clip, it made my heart melt and gave me tons of chills. These two are pretty good. Dancing hip hop to the song "Mad" by Ne-Yo. I loved it.


Well, I should probably get back to the game. But before I leave, here's a video of a cat 
eating peanut butter angrily. Random.
But here. Enjoy.

Blaaaaahhhh...Oh tacos

You know, sometimes I think to myself, why can't anyone ever understand me? I'm not speaking verbally or anything like that and I clearly write well enough for anyone who speaks English to understand me. But, what I'm referring to when I say understand me is...my personality. Me. I've gone through life being a loner and being quite comfortable with that. Not many people do understand why I am the way that I am. And a lot more people question it too much for my liking. I'm an individual. Shouldn't be enough of an explanation? Well, apparently, it's not. I get questioned by my own family members constantly. Why do you do this? Why do you do that? Because it's who I am. Would you be happy with yourself if you changed the person that I am? I wouldn't be happy with myself if I forced someone to change who they are and crushed their entire being with my judgments. I'm just saying. Let me be who I am? I'm 21 years old. Obviously I know that I have a lot of growing and molding to do. But, let that happen. Stop trying to impose your ways onto me. I'm sorry that I'm so random and spontaneous and care free. I'm sorry that I don't get hyped up and angry over things that make you angry. Or any other normal person angry. I'm sorry that I act like things don't bother me and rant on and on about things I obviously can't change. I'm sorry that I eat specific things that are to my liking. I'm sorry that I don't eat most of what you eat. I pay for what I eat, so what's the problem? I'm sorry that I'm a big kid inside and I have insomnia and stay up until the morning. I truly am sorry for waking you up countless times. That's rude of me, but it's always accidentally. I get carried away with my late night/early morning cam sessions with my wife. My fault entirely. I do apologize. But more important, I'm just so sorry that we're different. I've never felt so alone when surrounded by so much family. I've never felt like such an outcast. Yes, I'm homesick, but I never once thought that by moving here, I'd be treated this way. I'm a laid back person. I don't react and get heated and do things that I'm going to regret. I'm more of a thinker. And I'm very good at getting revenge. And I've always heard from fellow friends that it's the quiet ones you have to watch out for. They're right. Because we're quietly plotting revenge and taking over the world. It's true. But, I try not to judge others for the way they choose to live their lives. It's ashame that I am being so harshly judged by my own family for the way that I choose to live mine. That is all. My ranting is over. I'm planning on going to get some tacos soon, if I don't change my mind in the next 10 minutes. Times are hard. I'm struggling. But, I will make it through. And even though tacos doesn't seem like the smartest way to go. I'm so hungry. I've practically starved myself for the past week because I was low on funds and only had like 5 corn dogs left in the box I bought last week. And 3 chicken strips left in the pack I bought a couple weeks ago. I knew this day would come. And it has. And I just don't care anymore. I know "she" will bitch at me for not taking care of my responsibilities today, but I don't care. I'd rather wait and deal with the consequences.  I thought I broke my arm last night, but I didn't. Funny thing. It just hurt. It hurt really badly actually. But, while I was playing Tetris with my wife this morning, I complained and whine enough for it to go away. Full proof method there. Oh yeah, speaking of tacos, have you ever had Rubios? They have pretty great food. Not just tacos either. I only ever buy tacos by the bunches, but I have had their other food and it was enjoyable. I was just highly addicted to tacos for awhile. It ran into my funds and I had to go to rehab. Now, I'm back. Oh yeah. Then, when I get back, I will watch the Heat/Dallas game in peace. But only it won't be in peace because she will be home soon to probably lecture me about being loud this morning. It's expected, but always feared, you know? So, have any of you been watching the Nba finals? It's a good one, I tell you. Series is tied 2-2 and it's been a battle. That's exactly what I look for in series like these. I hate to see a team get blown out, except for the Lakers, which was so so sweet. Mmm. Anyway, I'm very much enjoying this back and forth game with these two teams. They both work their asses off to win games and they both want it. But we will just have to see who wants it more. I know I want Dallas to win. Not because I'm a Dallas fan, which I am not. And not because I hate The Heat, which I do not. It's because I'm a huge fan of Lebron James, but he's way too cocky to be allowed to win a title yet. Someone needs to show him how to be humble. Wade is the same way but not as bad and Bosh seems humble so no worries there. But, as much as I wanted Lebron to win a title in Cleveland, I do not think he is ready to win one in Miami. Not yet. Just my opinion. Speaking of that, all the way at the bottom of this blog, there's a poll. Who do you think will win? Answer it. Please? Do it! Now! Before it's too late and the world implodes! Omg. Go. K Bai <3

Gay?

So, I'm an ongoing fan of reality shows. To each their own, right? Well, I catch a lot of flack for watching shows like The Real World or Jersey Shore and such, but I could care less. Those shows may lack morals and things, but they're entertaining as hell. Now, I'm sure many people have at least heard about Dustin Zito from this seasons Real World cast in Las Vegas. Apparently, he did gay porn for several years and was keeping it as a huge secret from his room mates for awhile. It eventually came out in a number of ways. One of the room mates mother sent her an email revealing his feisty past. Now, this may not seem like a huge deal to anyone. People do porn. So what? But Zito made it his business to make Heather, the room mate mentioned above, his girlfriend. They had hooked up and were pretty much sleeping in the same bed like a couple for a short while. Of course, before you become intimate with someone, it would probably be a good idea to reveal that you had participated in porn before, let alone gay porn. Now, when this finally came out, which Zito feared would happen, everyone, including Heather, sort of turned on him. They got on him about lying and he felt cornered, although most of them felt bad for him anyway. They were mostly upset because he lied about it and would say a lot of homophobic statements, which made it seem like he was trying to overcompensate for his past. That only made him look worse. But anyway. I'm rambling. That happened a few episodes before the finale. And tonight, or last night, the reunion special aired. During the show, another cast member, Mike had a lot of issues with Dustin. They would always fight and be angry at each other and at this point, it's clear that Mike hates Dustin, but why? Why have hate for someone? I understand if you can't get along with someone, but the way he speaks about Dustin and to Dustin's face is extremely hurtful and mean. Disliking a person doesn't give anyone the right to disrespect them or their character just because of that factor. Not only that, but as a God fearing man, he should learn to forgive. Buuuut enough about that nonsense. I want to talk about the toll Facebook has taken on the world today. I mean, people wake up first thing in the morning and jump right on Facebook. I remember my cousin put up a status that said People wake up and get right on facebook. Brush your teeth and shit first. I thought that was hilarious and so true. When I wake up, I go to the bathroom, brush my teeth, wash up/shower and then get on the computer. At least I do it in that order. Facebook can wait. But people treat Facebook like it's a form of God or something. You're not in a relationship until it's Facebook official. You're not broken up until it's Facebook official. What the hell does "Facebook Official" even mean? Last time I checked, when you break up with someone, you're broken up at that very moment. Not when you change your Facebook status to single. That's why I never change my Facebook status and I'm married to my guy friend for that very purpose. I don't break up with people and think Wow, I have to get straight to Facebook to make this real. That's nonsense. But people live by these rules. I think that Facebook is good for remembering things and setting up gatherings and things of that sort, but to treat it like a notary is pretty ridiculous to me. That reminds me though, I have to update my status. By the way people who read my blog, if you know anything about Music Producing, feel free to hit me up. I love making music and you can click on one of those side bar links to the left if you'd like to have a listen to some of my work. I'm going to school for this and plan on making it big, just like millions of other people in the world. But I do plan on working my ass of to reach this goal, so watch out. Oh, I've got a serious, serious question about the word Gay. Do you get offended when people use the word gay when describing something bad or stupid? I see those commercials all of the time and wonder to myself, how many people get angry over that and how many don't. I, myself, am bi and don't get upset over people using the word gay in that manner. One, because I know at this point that it's become a fad and once it becomes a fad, it is unstoppable. It's like the "N" word. First it started off as a really bad word, but eventually became something of the norm. The word gay never really started off as a bad word though. It was just used in a bad way when said back then. But now, it has a whole different meaning. I doubt anyone who even uses the word gay in that way, is even thinking about homosexuality when they use it. I could be wrong, but that's just my take on the matter. I try not to be disrespectful or anything towards other people and I'd like for people not to be disrespectful towards me also. But, I am guilty of using the word. It's awkward though if I think about it. It makes me wonder, am hating on myself? That would be quite unfortunate. But given the fact that I don't care too much about words and how much power they are supposedly to have against me, it doesn't affect me. But does it affect you? Let me know. Well, I'm going to go eat gummy worms and drink juice while trying to find something to watch on TV before I pass out. Til next time...Tralalalala

Snickers Ice Cream

Snickers Ice Cream Snickers Ice Cream Snickers Ice Cream Snickers Ice Cream Ooooh Ahhhh. I have a question. When someone breaks your heart and you do nothing but want them back, no matter how they react, is it better to talk to them or leave them alone? Now I've gone through this and I knew in my head that it would be best if I stayed away from that person, but my heart forced me to ignore my head. I consider myself better than most people for even thinking of the right thing to do. But I fall low in score considerably for ignoring it even though I know better. What would you do if you were utterly in love with someone who didn't want to be with you?

I'm hungry for some...

Okay so, I'm not one to watch the news or anything because it depresses me. Nothing good ever happens on the news and when it is something good, I could care less about it. So anyway, what I do sometimes stumble across is the news on sites such as Yahoo, where they have articles and such about celebrities or politics, or anything you could imagine. I sometimes stop and read the ones that stand out to me. I stopped today and saw that Lady Gaga's album sales are failing horrible which made me laugh. I'm sorry. I won't say other peoples misfortune tickles me, but damn, I guess sometimes it does. I'm not a fan of Lady Gaga nor am I a hater. I just listen to a few songs, bob my head a little, and move on. No judgment passed about her or her music. She's just okay. The statement that she's made on todays music is intense and major, but it's been done before. Moving on....I know I'm super late, but what about the world ending? Why didn't that happen? I know that the entire time that people were complaining about the matter, I hadn't heard or seen anything about that. The only thing that lead me to believe that there was a rumor of the world ending, was the complaints about it on Facebook. I was like what the hell is going on? Since when is the world ending? I didn't know the details either. But when my friend posted It's past 6 o'clock and we're still here. Awkward... I was like okay, 6 o'clock we were supposed to die. But she was on the east coast, so I waited. I waited some more. 6 o'clock went by and I was highly disappointed. We're all sinners obviously. How sad. So sad. Anyway, anyone hear about the girl that got kicked out a movie for texting? Is that not hilarious? I text during movies but according to the article, she was loud as hell clicking and clacking with her phone. Phones are loud. Silence that thing ffs. So, a day has passed, have you seen XMen yet? If you haven't Smh at you, my friend. So onto something that might seem kind of important to some people. Finding a job. I'm looking for a job. Are you looking for a job? If you are, there is an article on Yahoo listing the top cities to find a job in. You don't have to go there though, I'll help you out, cause we're tight like that, right? So, the #1 city is * drum-roll* Washington D.C. Wooo, I don't live there so that doesn't help me. Moving on. # 2. San Francisco-Oakland-Fremont area which would be called the Bay area, which is where I live so maybe I'll get lucky. #3. Baltimore- Towson. #4. Minneapolis. #5. Cleveland. # 6. Boston. I know a girl from there. # 7. Seattle. #8 Orlando. I was actually considering going to the art institute there, but unfortunately, they didn't have the major I wanted. Awww. # 9. Pittsburgh. And last # 10. Kansas City. So, if you live in any of these places or don't mind relocating, maybe you should start looking. You might be surprised at what you find. So, apparently, my Facebook Husband read my blog and said I have A.D.H.D. Really? How rude of him. My randomness is pleasant. So, I'm going to go rummage for food like a starving orphan. Ahhhh Orphan. Sorry, had a flashback from a movie. Tralalalalalalalalalalalalalala....

Random Ranting

Just about to go to bed, at 3:30 AM....Yeah, I know. I have no excuse. Anyway. I am planning on attending The Art Institute of California: Los Angeles but it's a new plan. It's fresh. And I have probably a good year to plan this move through and through. So, I took my intrigue to Google because I wanted to know. Is this a good school? I looked for a bunch of reviews so I could get an idea of how good it really is. I can't really say anything about the Art Institutes in California except that the only review I read about them was that it was one of the best campuses to attend. But as for other campuses such as Pittsburgh or Chicago or Seattle, I read a bunch of horrible reviews. They were just horrific, I tell you. Now, before I move on to the good reviews, let me explain the nature of the bad reviews. Most of them were explaining how the School doesn't keep it's promises. They say that they give great education and ready you for the future and getting a job in the field that you want, but then they don't follow through and a lot of people end up not getting jobs when they graduate. This is understandable and yes I've heard and seen this before with many others schools. But this is how I feel about it. You go to school. You work hard. You set yourself up to get a good job when you graduate. Intern. Network. Don't just sit on your ass, which I'm sure many of those angry students did. A lot of kids these days expect things to be handed to them. As if they have to just sit in class, do homework, get a passing grade, and when they graduate a great job will fall right into their lap. What an idiotic thing to assume, right? Other complaints were that the school was a scam and they get you to sign these contracts that set you up to fail. Now, in my head, I'm thinking...How can it be their fault when you signed a contract? Now, I can understand if people are furious that they are now in debt, have no job, and their credit is getting messed up due to the mess. I completely understand where the anger would come from. But to blame all that on a school? Really? I mean, school isn't free. We all know that. And schools set you up with loans to help you go to a school you obviously want to go to. You can't pay in cash. You can't pull the money out of you ass. So, what did you expect? You signed a contract, on top of that. So, obviously you were aware that you were entering college and you were aware of the prices. This school is expensive. Way too expensive in my opinion but there aren't a million options out there for the field I want to enter. Now, for the good stuff. Some people actually had good things to say about AI. I know, surprising. Someone actually said something pleasant on the internet. They should be banned. But anyway, according to some other people who decided to review the school, it's actually a great school. They're just not a school that holds your hand through the process. They do have recruiters, but it's your decision entirely to put yourself in a position to enroll there. Once you enroll, school is great and if you work really really hard, you will go far. Now I saw a bunch of reviews talking about how a lot of students go there and don't really try hard and therefore don't go far. Which made me think. If I had no interest in the field I was taking in college and would have rather just play around and skate my way through college, I'd be pretty bitter too if when I got my degree, I couldn't get a decent job. That would just make me so mad. Especially for all of that money I would have paid. I honestly think it's funny. I can almost read these people I don't even know. How they get unnecessarily angry and outright filled with rage at a school, baffles me. School has one job and one job only, teach students. Then you have your financial aid offices who are there if you decide to poke your head inside and bug them enough to give you the right information. As for admissions, they're there too if you take the time out of your busy schedule to poke your head inside their doors. As for AI, I don't know what type of impression to form because I get bad reviews and I get good reviews. But one thing I do see is that the good reviews reflect entirely off of the bad reviews. Of course people are going to bad mouth a school that they failed at. It's inevitable. But it does get me thinking. And it will keep me thinking until I ultimately decide to go and see for myself what that school is all about. People are definitely evil though. Unethical creatures walk this earth just like everyone else. And anyone who thought they were safe from them, well it's there, where you made your mistake my friend. Be careful. 

Ba Boy Boy Ba Ba Boy Ba Ba Boyfriend?

Cookies! Cookies! Cookies! Sorry, I had nothing to say about cookies, just felt like saying that. So, what's up? I'll tell you what's up. I can't get that damn Boyfriend song by Big Time Rush out of my head. It just keeps on playing and playing in my head. I ask people if I am a loser because I am 21 and enjoy listening to bands that a child should be screaming over and of course, they confirmed my fears. But, I don't care. I like the damn song and I will shout it to the world. Ba boy boy ba ba boy ba ba boyfriend. See that? Perfection. Anyway. So, I got a call from an admissions woman from The Art Institute of California: Los Angeles and we had this pretty significant phone interview about my future. I guess she wanted to see if I was right for the school and if the school was right for me. She seemed pretty impressed with my goals and reasons for wanting to attend their school. We were doing pretty good up until the part where we talked about the admissions requirements. They don't have too many but they do require that you have at least a 2.5 GPA. Now I know it isn't that hard to achieve this, but last semester was my first semester at community college and a couple classes screwed me over. It was my fault, nonetheless, so I guess I screwed myself over. Anyway, learning this information gave me a bit of insight on what I need to accomplish before applying to this school. So, I've registered for my future classes. I decided to only take a few classes to bring up my GPA and then move on from community college. Here I was, sitting here thinking that I had to go to community college for two years and then transfer to a CSU or UC, but now that I know I don't have to wait, it feels great. Enough about that. Did anyone see the Finale of ABDC (Americas Best Dance Crew)? I know I did. And if you are like me, you would have been pretty upset that those future Jersey Shore cast members, Iconic Boyz, made it to the final two when everyone knows that it should have been Phunk Phenomenom and I Am Me. I am so happy that I Am Me won though because if they had lost, I would have been forced to harm an infant and nobody wants that. I pretty much screamed when I Am Me won the competition. My facebook Husband and I discussed this after they won and came up with the idea that America voted for Iconic Boyz and the show rigged it so that I Am Me could win because they obviously deserved it. I completely applaude them if they did that. 100 %. Anyone watch the Real L word? Go watch it. Enough said. So, I'm planning on going back to jersey to visit my family. I really can't wait. The plane tickets lately are about an arm and two legs and I try waiting for them to go down but they just go up. But at this point, I'm done waiting. I'm so homesick, it's not even funny and I'm willing to give up my limbs to see my family. I miss my mom. I miss my grandmom. I miss my CAT. She's so fat and fluffy and pretty. And I'm sure she misses me too. Last time I went home to visit about a month or so ago, she hissed at me and ran away. But that was just our love/hate relationship. She was just upset that I left, that's all, no worries. So how about the MTV Movie Awards? Did you like it? I kind of liked it. I thought that they didn't really have to air the ABDC Finale during the red carpet because Thursday would have been perfectly fine. Why the change? If it ain't broke...Well, you know the rest. But once the show started, I had a few good laughs. Like when Robert Pattinson kissed Taylor Lautner, or was that crying? Meh. Anyway. Chelsey Lately was funny. I laughed my ass off at that Zach Efron crack. And when Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis were giving out an award and groped each other. That was enjoyable, but not in a creepy way although I'm not sure how that could be enjoyable in a non creepy way. Oh well. Anyone go see XMen? Go see it. If you have not yet seen it, drop whatever you are doing right now. I don't care what it is. Driving on the highway, pull over at the nearest exit. Cross over to the other side. Run over people if you have to. Just get there. Pay the money and watch closely. It was really a great movie, in my opinion. I won't ruin it for anyone who has not yet seen it, but I encourage you to get yourself to the theater immediately. I've got to go buy some candy now because...well, I love candy and I seem to have run out. I seem to do this quite often. Oh, why so spontaneous? What was I about to do? OH yeah. Well bye. <3